I MISS HIM!!!!!

I went for my first interview with Ain..
tapi menghampakan...hihi..(Ain je yg dapat) congratulation Ain..(10% tau)
hahaha..the girl who interviewed me say tat 'im to girlish' for tat position..haha..watever!~

Suddenly i feel my heart empty..i need to him..
need to shared my sadness with him..
I've been feeling this emptiness for sometime
Trying to make my life busy..
But my world has been so crazy lately...
Living without u is like living without water...

Baby I miss u
I need to be back in your arms
I've never stopped loving u
My heart is where u belong
And for heaven and earth pass away
God please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we've come to far to let it slip away
Cause we've come to far to let it slip away

Couldn't understand many things in my life
And what u meant to me
I don't wanna be alone no more
So then my heart can take it
That weeks have past
Since you've been gone
That I've thought that I could make it

Baby I miss u
I need to be back in your arms
I've never stopped loving u
My heart is where u belong
Baby don't know what else to say or do
Its hard to get through every night and everyday
Knowing u gonna walk away from me
Its killing me inside
Feeling so strong I can't hide
So God help me get through trying times
I'll do anything to have u back in my life

xoxo
Baby I miss u

I Realize, It Just My Mind

why should i think bout him?
why should i cried for him?
what did i done to myself?
i don't wanna be psycho!!
i'm not that crazy!!
Why don't you understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything I've plan got destroyed
But you’re just a boy n u never gonna understand...
yes..i will love you like i love you yesterday..
my love for you will never die!!!!

ahhh!!!(takke giler name ni?) haih...

Thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you baby
I realize, it was jusT my mind
Played tricks on me

And it seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Every time the phone rings
I pray to God it's you
And I just can't believe
That we're through

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refuse to believe
That you don't care

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

I've got to gather myself as together
I've been through worst kinds of weather
If it's over now
Then I'll be strong
Can't believe that you're gone
I've got to carry over

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Oh there's no other way to say it
I can't deny it
I miss you baby
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Oh no other way to say it
I miss you baby
There's no other
That you're deprived of me now
That you're deprived of me now
I miss you
Said I can't deny it
I, I, I, I miss you baby
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

xoxo
Because i Love Him!!

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

xoxo
tq

Yummy! Yummy!! delicious!! i lurve chocolate!!
hehe..byk nye chocolate bulan ni..hihi..gemuk la sye bulan ni nampaknye..



owhhh..btw add me at my msn..fairuzabdrahman@hotmail.com..my new account..:)

xoxo
yaay!!

HAVE FUN WITH THEM

Last night i had fun with my friends and besties..glad to meet them last night (rindu sgt2!)
tq Hasif for coming..tq Fatin, tq Nadia n her 2 other friends...hihihi..(gee n ??)

Hasif and me..(while waiting for Nadia to come)

me and Fatin

Fatin Liyana..my college friend..she's in a relationship with Haris...good for her!

lelaki ni name die hasif tp suka digelar sbgai cheep bodo...hihihi...die bru je break dgn gf die..
gf yg 'ngade2' tak pe cheep..move on kay...u deserve perempuan yg lagi baik den her!!!okay???
hihihi...
Okay tat's Nadia..my friend since form 2...die la yg banyak mengajar kerja2 jahat ni..(kan nadia?) hahaha....she just broke up....tp mamang patut pn kalau die nak break...her e'x tu giler mental, psycho and damn crazy!!!!!! ade ke patut die pukul2, tumbuk2,tarik rambut sume..den die lupa ape die buat kat Nadia..(tak ke mental tu?) giler!~

xoxo
Fairuz

yaayyy!! berjaya masak nuggets for adik n hash brown..wahahahah...proud of myself..
(big clap for me) walaupun hangit dan rumah pn berkepuk asap..huhu..
nice try!!! okay skrg dah pukul 8.40 a.m.
zzzZZZ.....gud nite semua...

xoxo
dead meat.
18 nov 08 - 08.43

Good Morning Malaysia..
hahah..i haven't sleepy yet..
just doing some 'muhasabah diri'
yes..im gonna move on with my life..
no turning back! walau mcm mane susah pn..life must goes on kan?
g lantak ngan sume org..sampai bile nak bersedih kan?
passed is a passed...tak guna pn nak bersedih dkt org yg tak 'berhati perut'.
kalau boleh nak je kumpul kan all the memories in the big plastic bag den burn it!!
memang ianye akan menggambil masa untuk membakar..but tat's it..lepas bakar tinggal debu je..tak yah nak simpan2 lagi....:) (ape yg aku ngarut ni?)

owhh..im going to delete all my account..(facebook,myspace,friendster,ym and msn)
so i just continue with my blog...(for ym n msn i'm gonna do my new id) so i will add you guys. dun worry..n i'm about to change my phone number..(tp tak jmpa num yg best lagi~)

Dis is what im gonna do now:-

1. Delete all my account
2. Change my ym n msn id
3. Buy new sim card/Change new number
   
4. Get a job
5. Savings
6. Rock climbing
7. Aerobic class
8. Dancing class
9. Nak kuruss!!
10. Involve with my sister wedding preparation
11. Vacation
12. Get my life back!
    

tats all for now kot..tak dapat nak berfikir lagi..sbb dah terlalu pagi...hihi
bercakap pasal my sister wedding..titibe je hati sedih..
grhh..fara nak dekat kawin dah...cepat nye masa berlalu...
im not saying tat fara tak leh kawin..boleh je..tp mesti nanti she gonna change kan?
sbb dah ade husband...i love you fara!!!!

yaayyy!!!dah 6;24 a.m. jap lagi nak hanta mama..den make brakefast ntk my baby brother..(ye2 je) den going to Aliya house (kalau larat)..I'm going to make my day busy.

im listen to the Sean Lennon song - 'dead meat'

Dead meat,
Don't you know you're dead meat?
You just messed with the wrong team
Better not try and fall asleep now.

You better run out of here
I'll close my eyes and count to ten
and then I'll come find you.

You're gonna get what you deserve
Gonna get what you deserve
In the end you're gonna learn
Oh, you'll get what you deserve.

Too much now you know too much
Only one choice you leave for us
Do you think they'll believe us, or you?

Hope you realise this isn't a game
You know the price, okay?
Oh, your life could be chaos.

You're gonna get what you deserve
Gonna get what you deserve
In the end you're gonna learn
Oh, you'll get what you deserve.

but i don't think i get wat i deserve here!! haha..yes this is only a game...
and i loose n yet i'm not a looser!!!....dun worry bout me!! chill girl!!

sangat rojak dan berterabur blog kali ni...hahaha..sorry readers...hihi..
anggaplah blog kali ini sebahagian daripada sesi luahan perasaan..

xoxo
good by sadness!!

damn it!! time kat blog ni tak betul!!
haha..18 Nov 08 7:16 a.m

Don't hold yourself like that
You'll hurt your knees
I kissed your mouth and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea

Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for what I give to you
Is just what i'm going through
This is nothing new
No no just another phase of finding what I really need
Is what makes me bleed
And like a new disease she's still too young to treat
Volcanoes melt me down
She's still too young
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me

xoxo
Damien Rice - volcano-

Twisted

Oh yeah baby
You got to make your mind up
Yeah, Kut Klose, hear me out

You know you are my lover
You got me twisted over you
I know I got what you need
So what you wanna do

Baby, baby I know
Baby I love you so
But you don't feel like I do
Tell me what can I do

But I gotta be strong
You did me wrong
When I thought that we were really down
So you say you want me
Make up your mind
Cuz I'm not gonna be here for long

Baby, baby in time
Baby I know you'll find
That what you needed was here
And think about it my dear

Breaking up down
You got me twisted
Thinking about the way that things use to be
When It was you and me girl I was so free
See you had my life
Like Cupid and I was just down right foolish and stupid
But now I know the reason for the pain and the headaches
You left me all alone now I can't even concentrate
I guess I'll wait for the day until you come back
Because my heart is where your love is at
You got me twisted

xoxo
this song remind me of him

kejam!kejam!kejam!!!
what should i do now?